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It may have something to do with the fact that "Rapunzel" was my favorite fairy tale growing up. The idea of a girl with hair so long it could be used as a ladder fascinated me. I also loved the end of the story where Rapunzel cries and heals her would-be savior.
What I really love about Rapunzel in Disney's version is that she never gives up on her dream to see the floating lanterns. Even when everything seems to be going wrong and her whole world is turned upside down, she still presses forward.
Not only that, but she's never afraid to be herself. Dance in the middle of town and pull perfect strangers into the dance? No problem. Yell at a bunch of big bad guys who are intent on pulling Flynn apart? Okay. Wield a frying pan against any and all dangers (including the stray bunny rabbit)? Heck yeah!
I try to be myself. I truly do. But I often find myself becoming a social chameleon. If I'm around people who are loud and slightly irreverent, I raise my voice and push my limits (not too far, though...). If everyone is quiet and reflective, I'm the same. It's not that I'm trying to impress anyone. I've moved past that. I just tend to...blend. Perhaps you could say I become a character to fit the situation. (There's a reason I enjoy writing fiction so much.)
More and more, I find I'm only truly myself when I'm alone. And I'm alone a lot.
Not that I'm complaining. I enjoy my own company. I can be quite hilarious at times. (Ha!)
Maybe that's the key, though. Everyone makes it sound like being alone is such a horrible thing. But I think forcing myself into social situations is just another way to "fit in" and be someone other than myself. I love my alone time - going to the library, seeing a movie, wandering a store, eating at a restaurant. I'm the crazy lady with the book, er, Kindle in the corner you pity because I'm all alone (don't).
I'm not saying I don't enjoy getting out and hanging with friends, because I do. On occasion. As long as it's not too late because I'm definitely not a night owl. And not for too long because being with people can suck the life right out of me.
Yes. I am an introvert. What clued you in? :)
The thing is, I'm happy living a semi-reclusive life. That's part of who I am. I work best on my own. I enjoy myself best when I'm alone. I feel more when I'm alone.
And I'm happy.
In the end, isn't that what matters most?