|The view of my lap desk from my current position. Lovely, isn't it?|
As far as Dream-Chasing goes, I've stalled worse than an airplane out of gas.
I wish I were kidding, but it's the truth. With all these back problems, pain medications (which I'm no longer on - woohoo!), doctor visits, physical therapy, attempting to give my now 15yo a good birthday, and trying not to let my disaster of a house get to me, I've let everything slide. Even this post. It's 4:00 pm and I just started it.
But I can give you a few updates.
While I haven't been working on my Corners series, I have been working on writing-related stuff. I've submitted a short story for an anthology due to come out next year - possibly in September. I also have the opportunity to collaborate on another short story for a Christmas anthology. Short stories are quite fun to write. I may be writing more of them in the future.
I've also been beta reading for a friend who's on a deadline and by doing so, I'm learning a lot about the publishing industry - developmental edits and so on - as well as how to improve my own writing. It's been a great learning experience and I love doing it.
I came to the realization this week that I'm not going to allow myself to feel guilty for putting my writing on hold for now. I need to get better physically. I need to be able to care for my family and my home. I need to be independent again.
I need to get my life back.
It's happening. Physical therapy is working. I'm much more mobile now than I was a week ago. I'm more functional. Without all the pain meds, I'm more lucid and in control of my emotions. I still have to be extremely careful and sneezing is still evil, but progress - however small - is cause for celebration.
And I feel the story building in me. When I see something on Pinterest or Facebook that reminds me of the world I've been creating, I take note. My characters are speaking to me. For now, they're whispering. But they're growing more insistent. They don't like being left alone for long. Especially now that I know who they are and their world. I've set a goal and created a schedule for when I am ready to write again. I have a direction.
I may be stalled and somewhat broken for now, but soon that will change. I'll stand tall and strong, butterfly net in one hand and sword in the other, and set out on my quest once more.
Just watch and see.